I knew enough to know that I needed to write it out, my heart is yearning to express, my thoughts swirling around waiting to land. As soon as I starting typing tears start rolling down my cheeks. So where do I start with all these feelings? Where do I begin with the last month? I think it’s even further back to the first of the year. Ch-Ch-Change!
“When we are no longer able to change a situation – we are challenged to change ourselves.”
– Viktor E. Frankl
I decided to take January as a “Me” month- one of inner reflection, meditation, prayer, visioning, and retreat. Before that, nothing seemed to be flowing and as I kept trying to make things happen it felt more off, so I took the entire month for me. In this time I opened to all possibilities. I felt my heart open, and I surrendered to what’s coming through. I prayed about being aligned and on purpose, visioning and meditation where about alignment as well. I felt my soul telling me to trust and know all was in divine order. I released what I thought things needed to look like. Take Me, Spirit was my theme and that brought me great peace.
“ If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.”
– Wayne Dyer
Well, things have happened fast, at the end of the month and the first of February, opportunities started showing up. I was different this time, I was open to looking at everything, and I knew my ministry was about how I showed up, not an in the box definition I was holding on to. I looked at one position that was business and ministry and I thought WOW, this could be it. The more I delved into it the more I felt less aligned with all I wanted to bring. I released this opportunity a few days ago.
“There is nothing permanent except change.”
Another wonderful opportunity that showed up during this time has taken shape. I am now immersed in work that is feeding my soul, work I have done for many years that I am very passionate about, work I thought that was more my history than my future. What I was focused on was bringing all my experience into my ministry, and now after opening to the all, to spirit, to my soul, I realized that I can take my ministry into the work that I have loved for so many years. I did need this past year and a half away to regroup, to feed my soul and now I feel ready. It’s all about how I show up, wrapping love around what I do every day.
“The only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it, move with it, and join the dance. “
– Alan Watts
Thank God, my fiancé Eric opened too, and we are both walking with this new experience and possibly moving soon, as a team, with his family supporting us and mine as well. What a wild ride this life is, what a blessing and challenge, with light and dark and all shades in between- full of surprises. I am learning to love it all. As I am delving into CEO work again it’s a priority to stay centered and balanced with my heart open. Remembering every day it’s about the mission: Lead with the mission, and that is what fills my heart up. The power to create safe places for kids, provide them a sense of belonging, and empower them to be their amazing selves, is the Best!
“Never believe that a few caring people can’t change the world. For, indeed, that’s all who ever have.”
– Margaret Mead
I am in the midst of the winds of change. I am allowing the breeze to lift me, to love each step of the way, allowing myself to feel it all, and I know when it feels stormy, the gentle breeze is always around the corner. I do love change and when I’m in the middle of it, it can feel a bit overwhelming. What I’m learning is to embrace all the feelings. Winds change and so do feelings.
“I can’t change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination.”
– Jimmy Dean